Today is a sad day , it is the anniversary of my Sisters death . A year ago today Gillian left us , a victim of that terrible indiscriminate disease , Cancer and I have missed her every day .
Missed hearing her voice on the telephone , chattering and gossiping and running up a huge bill . Missed receiving letters and silly photos in the post . Missed the texts we exchanged , sometimes dozens at a time and sometimes just one , late at night , when we just suddenly HAD to know the name of an actor or the singer of a certain song . I'm sure you all know what I mean , you have the answer somewhere in the back of your mind but you just can't remember it and you can't sleep because it's driving you mad !
I miss the visits , the days out , when we used our own private code as we strolled around the town 'people watching '. Our own little jokes and silly sayings .
I miss the laughter and the jokes she shared with my husband , always calling him " Kindly Old Hector " ......... not his name , but the character from the childrens programme ' Hectors House '
I miss the way she sliced cucumber in great thick pieces , forever after known by my children as ' Aunty Gill slices ' .
I miss her generous nature , her bags of knitting and her boxes of cross-stitch projects , always started and then abandoned halfway through for a ' newer ' one .
Yes I miss all that , but most of all I miss her BEING HERE . Knowing that somewhere on the planet there was another person who shared my memories , who had some idea of the events that have made me the person I am and who would always be on my side no matter what .
So today this page is dedicated to my beautiful brave sister Gillian and to all of you out there who have lost someone you love . May all your memories be happy and I hope that time allows you to think of your loved one and smile .
Me ( l ) and Gill ( r )
Gillian 28th Jan 1950 - 1st Oct 2010