October 1st 2011

Today is a sad day , it is the anniversary of my Sisters death . A year ago today Gillian left us , a victim of that terrible indiscriminate disease , Cancer  and I have missed her every day .
Missed hearing her voice on the telephone , chattering and gossiping and running up a huge bill . Missed receiving letters and silly photos in the post . Missed the texts we exchanged , sometimes dozens at a time and sometimes just one , late at night , when we just suddenly  HAD  to know the name of an actor or the singer of a certain song . I'm sure you all know what I mean , you have the answer somewhere in the back of your mind but you just can't remember it and you can't sleep because it's driving you mad !
I miss the visits , the days out , when we used our own private code as we  strolled around the town  'people watching '. Our own little jokes and silly sayings .
I miss the laughter and the jokes she shared with my husband , always calling him  " Kindly Old  Hector " ......... not his name , but the character from the childrens programme  ' Hectors House '
I miss the way she sliced cucumber in great thick pieces , forever after known by my children as  ' Aunty Gill slices ' .
I miss her generous nature , her bags of knitting and her boxes of cross-stitch projects , always started and then abandoned halfway through for a  ' newer ' one .
Yes I miss all that , but most of all I miss her  BEING HERE  .  Knowing that somewhere on the planet there was another person who shared my memories , who had some idea of the events that have made me the person I am  and who would always be on my side no matter what .

So today this page is dedicated to my beautiful brave sister  Gillian and to all of you out there who have lost someone you love . May all your memories be happy and  I hope that time allows you to think of your loved one and smile .

                                                              When we were young
                                                               Me ( l ) and  Gill ( r )

                                                  Gillian     28th Jan 1950 - 1st Oct  2010